Its Brydees birthday on Friday and i am angry, upset, gutted that she wont be here for it.If i dont think about mum I am fine....which is what i have tended to do since she died. I know its all sitting there waiting to overtake me. I have no place to grieve for mum. I wont cry round my kids cos they get upset. So i am just holding it all back. I ... Read Morehave heaps going on at the moment and i seem to be taking more and more on so i dont get a chance to think about mum. Im scared i will crack soon and end up having a breakdown.